uuuugh spring depression's pushing in...... so sorry for this one month late journal entry.. :<
School keeps pushing and pushing with work, this week I must finish my artdiploma work and I have NO motivation to do it, sigh.. this week, I matriculation exams are on... I don't know why they all have to book up on the same week. :<
And somehow I've been starting to feel different lately.. like, am I really that different from other people. I enjoy staying at home instead of going out on Friday night to get drunk or even go to bar to meet friends. I feel anxious if I even hear the word bar or boose in any forms of it. Also that I miss some particular friends with who I loved to spend time with, but these days all they love to do is fill their throats with boose. I notice it at school too, I'm outcasted, because I don't drink or smoke. People who do often ignore me, I don't feel like I have anyone there.. I'm glad it'll be over next month, my summer vacation starts then, whole freaking building left behind until next August when I shall return, while others are gone.. *sigh*
Another odd thing going on me is the fact I'm suddenly having big dreams. BIG dreams. Like living abroad for a while, like 3 months or so, just to see how it is somewhere else. As many can guess, the first country in my mind is Japan. The land of most elegant and mysterious traditions mingled with latest, shining technology and interesting people. I even had this little but wild dream I'm not going to share with you, because I'm 100% sure it'll never happen. :> I'm a bastard, ihihi. But I'm glad we go to Crete on July, I wonder if I'll turn out to be like my sister then: travelmaniac. XD
this was really, REALLY pointless journal entry, no photos or anything. I'll post some pictures of Penkkarit event at school for abiturients when I get some from my teacher, that should be soon. Then I'll introduce you to one of the loveliest things that I own: my first Kimono. <3 yes, I have my own Kimono! had for months now! I never dared to say it in public because I didn't want others to see as what I'm going to penkkarit, I wanted it to be a surprise. ^^ I'll show it next time, I promise!
Edit 21.25
Alright one photo, and I'm sure most of my friends will kick my head. I bought these:
Crocks. They're somethign so hidious that I promised myself never to wear those. But I bought them, for 3 euros so yeah, they're fake, real ones cost about 40 to 50 euros, and look almost exactly the same. I know people who know my opinion on these will think I lok like a dumbass and so will many others, but they're handy when we go to Crete, cause I get blisters easy. And nobody knows me there. And and I can wear them in water too! no more sand in my shoes!! NO!! I'm not making excuses, stfu. ;;___;;;
